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So as I SLOWLY approach the top 2000 on the site, I must reflect on the insanely frustrating goal this was to make.

When I first made the goal, I had to get to 200K TT points, which is why I had that as a goal. When I get 200K, the 2000th spot was around 215K TT. Now as I'm about to leave the 2200s, the top 2000 start at 225K TT. The struggle is real.

I keep moving up by leaps and bounds, but the goal always seems farther and farther out of reach. Frustrating, absolutely, but I found a weird motivation and silver lining.

As my goal seems to be getting further and further away, I found that my need to achieve my goal is taking precedence in my gaming. Rather than watch it get further and further away and slip through my fingers at the end of the year and having a failed goal, I'm chasing it with extreme determination. Mainly because I have a little competitive nature with myself and if I set a goal, I want to achieve it. With all the other goals I set for myself at the beginning of the year, it would be a damn shame for this one to be the one I fail at.

And my backlog is decreasing! I held onto several games that were easy plats, trying to focus on big releases so I could enjoy the ones that were popular more. I knew I would get to them eventually. 'They're easy and I can crank them out, no problem,' I thought on many occasions. Well, now's the time to crank them out, clear out hard drives, shrink my backlog list! Damn all those puzzle and telltale games taunting me with their easy plats, but huge time commitments! Those plats are now mine, bitches, and so is this goal! Sly Cooper plats? On the list! Lego games unfinished? MINE! The backlog of easy, but not that much fun games will decrease!


But seriously, watching a 50K goal turn into a 75K+ goal and counting...I appreciate the challenge, but could it stop getting exponentially further away?! warning toast angry laugh
Posted by BenNoddy on 14 June 17 at 00:32 | Last edited on 14 June 17 at 02:43
AtsumaKarin Nice to see you so fired up about this! I have no doubt that you'll achieve everything you want to if you can maintain that! toast

I think the Top 2,000 thing is similar for me with Top 500. I've FINALLY broken into the Top 700 and am kinda maintaining it just about but there'd be a LOT of work to do to get to that Top 500 mark, will be some time at my current rate.
Posted by AtsumaKarin on 14 Jun 17 at 10:45
BenNoddy Pretty much if I'd known it was this big of a bitch to jump up the boards, I probably wouldn't have made it an open goal, but a personal one that I kept track of off site.

I enjoy the competitive nature of things, but moving 955 spots really puts me in a much different mindset when it comes to my gaming so that's the purpose of this: redirect my energy and treat this as a positive thing rather than the pain in the ass it's been.
Posted by BenNoddy on 14 Jun 17 at 12:40
biff_beefcake I love the silver lining here! clap

Hooray for the shrinking backlog!! Ever since getting back to BL2 and finally getting 100%, I've been sparked to clean up the rest of my PS3 backlog a bit (another advantage is that it's not growing very much anymore). Hopefully I can delete/sell some of these games I've had forever!!

Good luck with the leaderboard goal! I'm sure that there are a few retired trophy hunters just ready to be overtaken wink
Posted by biff_beefcake on 14 Jun 17 at 18:13
BenNoddy The PS3 backlog is REAL!! Lol.

The silver lining/positive aspect of this is actually really nice and I thought it should be passed along. Setting a goal where it constantly pushes you to clear the backlog out is actually a blessing. Try one. Just don't make it approximately 1000 leaderboard places. Start small. Like 100-250.
Posted by BenNoddy on 14 Jun 17 at 22:12
biff_beefcake Gosh, maybe I should do a goal like that! I'm usually not too interested in LB position, but being in a situation where the goal posts are always moving back might help me focus on the backlog a bit better :)
Posted by biff_beefcake on 15 Jun 17 at 14:22